'I attempted suicide three times'– Jacqueline E. Vanterpool
Ms Vanterpool was at the time speaking on the Sunday, May 19, 2024, edition of Real Talk with Karia J. Christopher when she added that she always knew she wanted to be a police officer and noting said by anyone could have prevented her from going down that path.
Blocked from joining RVIPF by mother
“I applied at the tender of 18, did the exam successfully and was about to finally enter into a dream I desired… but my mom, a very strict Drill Sargeant… stopped it,” she added.
Ms Vanterpool shared that her mother had also spoken to a former Commissioner of Police about not letting her join the force, and the commissioner said he had to honour the request.
“If I sit and I say to you that I know what it is to be depressed, I'm not lying… If there's ever a last state of depression, yours truly went through it. But I went to work every day to the post office and kept everything on the inside.”
As an alternative, Ms Vanterpool said she worked in nursing and teaching and as a Post Officer in separate careers but it was never her desire.
Second attempt to join failed
After applying again to join the police force, Ms Vanterpool said her mother once more intervened in the process. “My boss then said to me, Jackie, whatever it is, you need to go and get help. But I knew what it was, I wanted to be a police officer it was not only mom, I had a brother who was in there, he was also blockage as well.”
Ms Vanterpool shared that as a result of the impacts of mental health on her performance at work, she was forced into counselling at the request of her employers or face losing her job at the post office.
“I went to one session and never went back…. I was 28 years old and I had to go right back from the time I was five years old and come back to 28 and it brought all sort of memories I didn't want to remember, that I've been through in life.”
She added, “I went through sexual abuse and the physical abuse. I saw my mom being abused by my dad. So a number of memories came back, and it didn't help me.”
Suicide attempts
She shared that throughout the ordeal of not being able to work in the career she dreamed of, she attempted suicide.
“I know what it is to actually attempt suicide, and I attempted it three times. The third time was one that was very, very close…. I'm only standing here, sitting here, because of the goodness of God.”
Ms Vanterpool said it was a close friend who helped her at the third suicide try, but then she started to think about the people who cared for her and depended on her.
"I now can say it’s a strong angel that lift me up from where I was,” she added.
Ms Vanterpool shared that it was Christian leaders who helped her through new set of counselling, which allowed her to be where she is today.
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38 Responses to “'I attempted suicide three times'– Jacqueline E. Vanterpool”
Stop being so mean and help People to reach there full potential.
Thanks Ms.Vanterpool im sure this atticle would help a lot of people to know its ok if they experience challenges in this area. If you experienced it and they to experienced this by the grace of God they can survive and be of help to someone else.
Those of you who know of people going through difficulties please take a time out and check on family, friends and neighbors their survival can very well depend on you.
Do what you can to help even if it cost you. Time, money or whatever you may just be the one to save a life even if its your enemy. Save a life! Peace
So happy you're here and in a position of service to us all.
Be blessed, be strong and blessings heaped upon you.
To my understanding, she was denied entry into the force because her feet had a disability and a former commissioner bent the rules so she could enter. And her mom was so glad when the former commissioner allowed her into the force. So I don't know what she is on here talking about.
U are a liar and a loser. My sister never had a disability because of her feet. So keep off her with your lies. You are such a loser whoever you are. You are just a hater and a loser. Go get a life and stop hiding behind your lies.
Negativity is pain full we can do better stop being so bitter at people. You would cause people to be so closed that they can't trust people which is not healthy. Please please please be concerned about helping people to be an over comer.
And Suspect all..
Remember they didn’t only Crucified Jesus , (nop) they also Killed him,, Snake on the grass (ANACONDAS) , They will Eat and Drink with you and as you turn your back , they will stab you, as a matter of fact, some of them will stab you even before you turn your back and pretend they were playing …